Today marks 9 years since my first love was taken from my arms. Taken from the life we planned to live together til we were old and gray. Taken from a Corps he intended to continue to serve proudly. Taken from family who loved him unconditionally.
Matt was a loving man who hated confrontation. He always wanted peace between everyone. He loved those who didn't really deserve it.
In the time we had together all he did was love me. Me being the stubborn one I am I fought it at times because that's who I am, just ask Tom! But no matter what he loved me. He put up with so much to be with me. He was in a war, it may not have included a weapon or leaving my side but it was a war. He fought for our love everyday. He fought for acceptance. He fought for happiness and peace.
Unfortunately 9 years later and the war still hasn't been won. He would be so disgusted. He would hang his head in disappointment. How do I know this? Because I knew him, the REAL him. The one who shared him deepest secrets, his wants and desires, his pains and sorrows, his dreams and wishes.
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As most of you know its been a while since I have written. The last time was in Feb. I kind of took a break after that just to focus on my life and family. I have wanted to write so many times since then but the words were just never there.
This morning I woke up as usual and since it is Matt's anniversary of his death I wanted to write on his memorial page. Well to my surprise I have been blocked. Just a month ago I wrote and posted a pic on the page. So now not only have I have been blocked from personal pages but MY husbands memorial page. Fine block me from the others but why his? Why does anyone feel they have the right or prerogative to block me or delete me?
No one can change that I was his wife. They can all continue to make up their own stories about him and change things to their benefit but it doesn't change the truth.
So please continue to be immature, hateful, and hurtful because why would you all change now?
I will continue to love and cherish what we had. I will keep the memories of him alive and not alter them to make me look better.
I loved him with my whole heart and nothing will ever change that.
As I have said before peace and acceptance is all that has ever been wanted.
Now I will continue my day as planned with my family and maybe even share a few memories on Facebook throughout the day of my Matt <3 p="">
