Today is the eve of my first husband's death. Tomorrow it will be five years since he left me on this earth to be with Jesus.
Yesterday was an emotional day for me as I drove on the 10 fwy. I thought back to our last night together and how precious it was.
I honestly can not believe five years has really gone by so fast!
Today I will be with all my family celebrating my pappy's birthday. As I put my smile on my face in front of them my heart is breaking inside for the great loss I have had. Oh how I wish I could be at his grave just talking to him. I would love to lay a dozen daisies by his head and tell him how I still love him.
How come someone's heart ache like mine five years later?
Because he was my soulmate! He was the one who made me whole. He completely completed me! We saved ourselves for each other and that was the most precious gift we could have given each other.
Yes I have a new soulmate and he completes me to the fullest but a piece of me stills grieves for the one who is in heaven.
Some ask how can you love two men? The answer lies with the One who gave both of these great men to me.
I know i'm just rambling right now but this is my heart speaking.
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Matt I miss you so much and wish for just one moment I could see your face again and tell you how much I love you and adore you. You were my everything and still are. I know you are watching down on me and my little family and you protect us every day. You see our future and I know you are so excited for us. Thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to love you and be your wife. Thank you for picking Tom out for me before you even realized it and preparing me for the day we would meet. Thank for being my baby's guardian angel. Even though you are gone in body you walk with me every day in my heart.
Today I reflect on our last day together. It was out of a story book just as the rest of our journey was.
